A Failure's Poem

Yesterday, me and my GF are officially off. I can’t say how long is our relationship coz it’s an on and off one. It ended where it also started, in 7/11.When I get back home, I lie on my bed and emote for a while. I grab a pen and a paper and write this poem.

Illusion stab

Tired of loving yet fond of crying
Meaningless kisses are puzzle pieces
Unnecessary emotions that lacks actions
Pain hunting seems no ending
Fake feelings paired with unholy lies
Foolish faults blowing my mind
Imperfect heart is unquestionable
Love leads to grief
Grief that needs long time to heal
Falling tears, unhappy screams
That’s the bitterness of life
Living at the same time dying
Loving while she’s imitating
Ignored efforts are signs of frailty
Failed patience causing sorrows
Smiles that weep, wounds so deep
Me, myself and I bears the bleeding
Looking for a right one
Running away from a cursed heart
Working alone with weakness
Writing this poem in silence
Dreams to be remembered
As always to be hated
Caring for a wall instead of each other
Colorless roses with weeping thorns
A romantic stupidity of failure

After writing this poem, I stop crying. It feels good to write for your heart. I get to sleep knowing that it would be fine tomorrow.

Trivia: the title of the poem is taken from the online game Cabal hehe. It’s a skill of a force blader. I can’t think of a title so I just use it. I hope it fits for the poem. ^_^